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Saturday, February 5, 2011

Deep Thoughts

So I've decided to take the plunge and joined the gym last month. I went to the gym quite a bit when we lived in Las Vegas but, since we've been in Philly, I've been trying to ignore my extreme lack of exercise. If you want to hear about my fun times at the Las Vegas gyms, read my Gym Diaries or how I returned to the treadmill after my breast implants....

This year, the holidays came and went and I noticed that I was sporting an extra large muffin top.

Eww.

I'm not 25 anymore - that's when I could starve myself for a week and be back in my skinny jeans. These days, when I'm teetering on the very edge of my mid-30s (dear God), just maintaining my current blubber, without growing any new fat, takes some serious.effing.work. Luckily, I know this now. I'm no longer in denial that I'm not the "skinny girl" like I used to be. I'm not in denial that I cant eat whatever I want anymore. I'm not in denial that soda, ice cream and beer are no longer my BFFs.

Damn you, food!

I will admit it gets a bit frustrating that, even when I watch what I eat and pull an hour of cardio at the gym 4-5 days a week, I don't see any real change.

And sadly, the gym is my only real outlet of getting out of the house on a regular basis right now. No problem, I'm a veteran at this work-at-home-mom business and I'm grateful to have the excuse to go. I'm hoping that the opportunity will encourage my confidence to get bigger, and my ass to get smaller. And for a writer, it makes for great people watching. If I only had a tape recorder in my brain so I could remember everything I've seen while sweating off the calories. Maybe I should bring my laptop to the gym and prop it up on my treadmill while I'm power walking...

4 comments:

Gretchen said...

I hear you! I turn 40 in June, and in the last year I have really noticead extra "fluff" around the middle. This said "fluff" doesn't seem to budge. I can eat like a bird all week, work out 3 or 4 times and lose .8 of a pound. Let me eat a burger or have some cocktails over the weekend and I gain 3 pounds (at least!) WAAAAAAA! I want to be the skinny girl again :(

OldGeezer said...

Hello Again Tasha! Now this is a subject I know about, unfortunately! When I was younger I was always thin, I was 6 feet tall and weighed 145 at graduation. I hate like a horse and te calores just fluttered away. The Navy built me up some so I was 188 when I got out of the servixce, and I felt great! It was a really great weight! Then two things happened. First, I turned 25, and secondly I heard God laughing in the ROFL tradition. Weight started packing on, virtually marrying me, and when I went to the beach to tan, people kept trying to roll me back into the ocean. Anyway, when I was in my 40's I hit 293, couldn't see my feet or willy for that matter, and had trouble breathing. Various effort to eat less and exercise brought me down to my now current 235, still fat, but at age 58 I can't walk on water! I think I speak for all of those readers older than you, it gets worse with age. Ugh, I know, and God is still laughing, but since I can breathe now, I'm just going to be a realist. Oh, and learn to ignore the negative comments make about your size. I no longer sign when I go into WalMart or Meijers and TWO doors open up for me side-by-side! I also ignore those cute little kids who see me back up at Meijers, and say "Beep Beep Beep!" Enjoy your new status! LOL! TC Don

Lys said...

Ahhh - the gym, something that I'm wrestling with as well. However, I think being in Miami for a week will make me RUN to the gym.

The Improbable Farmer said...

I saw a video once where people had their office desk raised so they could constantly walk on a treadmill while at work....

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